Prisoner of Love

I’m a prisoner of love,
Prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
I’m just a prisoner of love,
A prisoner of love

平気な顔で嘘をついて
笑って　嫌気がさして
楽ばかりしようとしていた

ないものねだりブルース
皆安らぎを求めている
満ち足りてるのに奪い合う
愛の影を追っている

退屈な毎日が急に輝きだした
あなたが現れたあの日から
孤独でも辛くても平気だと思えた
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

病める時も健やかなる時も
嵐の日も晴れの日も共に歩もう

I’m gonna tell you the truth
人知れず辛い道を選ぶ
私を応援してくれる
あなただけを友と呼ぶ

強がりや欲張りが無意味になりました
あなたに愛されたあの日から
自由でもヨユウでも一人じゃ虚しいわ
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Oh もう少しだよ
Don’t you give up
Oh 見捨てない　絶対に

残酷な現実が二人を引き裂けば
より一層強く惹かれ合う
いくらでもいくらでも頑張れる気がした
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

ありふれた日常が急に輝きだした
心を奪われたあの日から
孤独でも辛くても平気だと思えた
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

I’m a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
I’m just a prisoner of love
I’m a prisoner of love

Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
一人にさせない

I’m a prisoner of love,
Prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love
I’m just a prisoner of love,
A prisoner of love

Lying with an calm face,
I smile, tired of this
I was just trying to be at ease

It’s a “Crying For The Moon Blues”
Everybody searches for their own peace,
they still struggle despite being content,
and following for shadow of “LOVE”

Boring days suddenly started to shine
since the day you appeared in my life
I’m alright despite the loneliness and pain
I’m just a prisoner of love
I’m a prisoner of love

In hard times and good times
Through stormy days and clear days, let’s walk together

I’m gonna tell you the truth
I secretly choose the hard path
You encourage me,
So I call only you “my friend”

Bluffing or greed now mean nothing
since the day I was loved by you
Freedom and leisure are meaningless if I am alone
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Oh just a little more
Don’t you give up
Oh I won’t ever abandon you

If cruel reality tears us apart
then we both each become stronger
I naturally felt I can do more and more
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

Normal days suddenly started to shine
since the day I fell in love with you
I’m alright despite the loneliness and pain
I’m just a prisoner of love
Just a prisoner of love

I’m a prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
Prisoner of love
I’m just a prisoner of love
I’m a prisoner of love

Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
Don’t leave me alone

(Translation from wiki haha!)

First day of work ended pretty okay. Not exactly looking forward to work, but it’s pretty interesting and on the go. Excited over the other jobs haha. Apparently a colleague says I look like that kind that cannot sit still and will always have more than a job than once. He’s a saggi too and he believes in horoscope alot. Strange dude, but I can appreciate his humour haha.

Sticky note time~

Things I gotta do tomorrow!

1) DO MY LAUNDRY. argh I don’t know why even when I’m not home I seem to have never ending laundry. -_-

2) pack the ridge for pages I’ve done to meet the guy later. hopefully I can get like 5$ per page or something hehe.

3) try to be nice. period. haha.

too much things are reminding me of you. wassup?

Confidence

There are many times in which I stop by and wonder what exactly I am in life and what I hope for the most at the moment.

Most of the times it’d be be skinnier, be nicer. blahblahblah blah blah.

Now I wish, I’d have more confidence, for my esteem seemed to be getting in the way of things, and the trust and tolerance in my relationships with people.

I’ve been getting one too many pangs of feelingsthaticannotputmyfingeron lately, I would probably take margie’s advice and stop trying to figure out what it is. It’s getting no where.

Right there, picture of today.

Hi I think I’ve been resorting to blogging privately. Well, just because.

I need a space, a very big space.  No matter how close I am to people.

Gratitude

“Can I take a picture of you?”

He nodded his head silently and smiled.

“Thank you.”

He looked up from his playing, looked at me in the eye, smiled and said,     “Thank YOU.”

hi.

Hi the pic is because I was in a camwhorish narcisstic mode when I took it.

Have a long long entry coming up but will take awhile! So not done yet. I’m seriously such a procrastinator.

I will work hard tomorrow.

Anyway, dieting’s up again. Why. Well just  because. Haha. I don’t want to be a slab of fat white chicken HEH.

Low

I guess sometimes, I really am just not good enough.

Unable to fly any higher, and unable to allow myself to drop down.

I wish I can pick myself up, figure out where did I tangle myself and get myself free and soar. I’ve always been staring, while others get better and better, while me, all I do is stare.

I will be better, I want to be better.

It’s late.

Well, it’s late and I’m awake again.

The word for today seems to be “counter-intuitive”. Don’t ask why, it just is.

Kern’s back, awesome. But we’ve got only 2 models for Saturday. There should be six. Fail.

Picture: Daddy and mommy. It’s so blur, it’s almost paint-like.

Allow me to emofy for awhile.

明明知道是什么也 不是,却不由自主地看你的消息,注意着你的生活的点滴.

之后却远远地看着自己,发觉自己是多么没勇气没信心.看着自己胡里胡涂地尝试着跟你找话题,却又不由自主的看不起自己.

然后想着,其实我也一样.傻透了.

余命一ヶ月の花嫁

I love this japanese actress – Eikura Nana 榮倉奈々 because she’s so cute and not the typical damsel in distress kind of cute!

But anyway, saw this movie she acted in that’d I’d love to catch – 余命一ヶ月の花嫁 (Yomei Ikkagetsu no Hanayome) April Bride.

The girl has got breast cancer and only has got a month of life left. It’s based on the true story of Chie Nagashima, with her husband Taro Akasu.

There’s a lovely quote by Chie Nagashima which I found on the movie’s website.

みなさんに

明日が来ることは奇跡です。

それを知ってるだけで、日常は幸せなことだらけで

あふれてます。

みなさんに

明日が来ることは奇跡です。

それを知ってるだけで、日常は幸せなことだらけで

あふれてます。

Roughly it means.. It’s a miracle for tomorrow to come. Just by knowing that, and that life is full of happiness, is fulfilling enough for me. Okay that’s my interpretation. hahaha. the last line I don’t really know.

But yeah. Everyday is a miracle to come, and every day that has passed is a memory because of the time spent with important people (well even if you spent it alone, you’re important too haha!)

A nice lesson today.

Picture took at grandmother’s place at queenstown awhile ago.

Currently looping alice nine’s 華 (hana) and Vidoll’s Cryptic Tokyo! Really love the music of both bands ((:

Okay, I didn’t complete mavis’ present again, but there’s quite abit of improvement haha. I’m really such a slow slow sewer. Is there such at thing as sewer?

Today mommy wasn’t happy with me. Firstly cos of a petty issue of the switch. She wanted to kick a big fuss by raising her voice (which of course she’d say she didn’t if you point that out to her HAHA), and I was like uh okay whatever and went back to do my stuffs. And she got even more annoyed. But really didn’t see the point of her being agitated so didn’t even bother to pacify her.

And then yesterday, due to a ridiculous hunger pang at like.. 1130pm, I went to eat the already sliced cucumbers and accidentally, very terribly, ate the whole half of what’s left hahaha! She couldn’t find it today and she got annoyed.

.. like ok. I said my apologies but as usual, it’s never enough for her. And then I realised the older I get, the more I can’t be bothered when she starts on stuffs like that. Firstly if I start arguing, we’d probably have even more things to quarrel about and secondly, I think the organ at the left side of my chest is still hibernating, so I still don’t have the tendency to feel that rage. Lastly, I really don’t want to let her to get mad cos it’d just be sad for the family. But I’m still quite annoyed in a way.

Will be getting out of house tomorrow, lest I really turn into a NEET. or a hikikomori. Anyways glen calls me hiki-chan now cos I’m hibernating during weekdays. More intensive job-hunting lately, and got two responses, but one of it was for 3D modelling which i know nothing about haha. She sounded quite pissed when I said huh I don’t know. The other asked me to send in some works and hasn’t replied ever since, fml.

Alright and I shall sleep within the next 40 mins.

Sticky note for tomorrow

Okay, I decided to try out this a picture a day kind of blogging. To 1) make myself be more religious in keeping this blog running cos my memory is getting sucky and 2) it’s so wordy (the blog) that I myself don’t like to read back my entries.

Let’s see how long I can keep up with this.

The picture of today is a stalk of something I took at MacRitchie reservoir when I went out there for a walk with parents the other week. Cheated and photoshopped the vignette in haha.
So anyway, I really need to plan my days properly. So here are some of the things I must really do tomorrow.

1) Finish mavis’ birthday present HAHA. I sew so slowly, the threads are crying.

2) Conceptualise the new collection for feltlings – the fluffy thingies are getting cold up there on the blog.

3) Run run run run!!!

4) Clean the house (again) it’s getting dusty (again) seriously where do all those things come from!?

5) Draft out script for video for kern.

6) bid for kern. -___-

.. that said, miss kern’s bimboticness!

Here’s one of the camwhoring moments for mavis’ birthday the other time!

Testing out the newer version of polaroid programme haha.

.. oh and I resolve to start categorising my things. -_-