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fuck why am I so pathetic?
never, never will I put down my pride. Ever.
收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱 猜到没有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你 开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了 你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然後就放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
遥远是宇宙 静静在背後 去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有
I was in an especially foul and sleepy mood after a funfilled day today.
And it made me realise that seriously… noone but myself can bring myself out of my own misery.
Not the person that has been talking to me recently, constantly for no reason… not that person that I depended on way too much – because it is always a chore to try to bring people up.
I want to get my act up. I will start now.
It’s time that I… I stop attempting to reach for you. I’m tired already. As much as I feel miserable looking at the probable possibilities that would be missed if I walk away, as much as I wish that you’re indeed caring for me in a way that you don’t for others… as much as I wish you’d come after me. I guess I need some time off my mind, as much as you’re the only one that makes me feel completely secure and safe around, like the whole world outside doesn’t matter anymore and I can just sit there and laugh with you for eternity.
But that is not the real life, and like I told you before, I fear a comfort zone more than anything else because I’d just get too comfortable and that’s when my life just slips out of control in a spiral.
I want you and I need you but it’s time that I let it go.
