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Hi there are quite a number of incomplete things, but I shall do it after sleeping later.
There were quite a number of things that made me reflect quite abit upon my life and life in general lately. While typing this, my brain’s still moving too fast thinking of things too far. “A realist.”, as mavis said last night. I can’t seem to dream of things that I may not have before catching myself and hitting myself for being irrational. So goes with my future, my dreams, my relationships with people.
And here, I just saw an update which made me switch back to the msn window to check it out, realising that the person’s has already gone offline.
A moment of thinking “should I?” results in a moment lost of doing something on impulse and probably turning it into something nice.
Minutes of staying annoyed at a certain thing made me lose many seconds of happiness.
Days of wishing that I would be better made me lose many moments of really working on making myself better.
Times of thinking of the futrure made me lose the time I have now to make things Now right.
Seconds on pondering why people fall in love made me lose the times when I used to have faith that there is love.
Trying desperately to grasp things that slips in the passage of time made me lost whatever that’s in my hands now, even faster than before.
Suddenly, I’m feeling rather adventurous tonight. Can I do this this way? Or that way? Should I take it up? Should I say this to you? Or you?? Can I am I should I?
On another note, I really love the people around me. Looking at them, makes me really thankful, for whoever up there has given me, despite the fact that I believe that nobody has it all, I’m having enough that makes me happy.
I guess this is the thing that has been missing from my life for awhile. The peace and bliss that happens from inside me, the satisfaction of accomplishing things that I never thought I could, the reflection that drives myself hopefully, forward, and not harping and angsting over the same things, over the same people.
They say life’s a sine curve, it goes up and down. I seriously want my life to be a straight line if that’s the case. I’d have enough blessings, not enough to make me go up high, but I won’t have enough taken away from me to bring me down.
I’m here to clear my brain abit before I sleep.
Have no idea why but it seems to be in a jumbled mess, moving on and on and too fast for me to catch up with it. For these few days I’ve been terribly busy sewing, managing to produce some pieces that I never knew I could. Even though it was pretty basic I’m pretty proud of myself that I’m finally friends with my sewing machine. But as I kept myself busy, albeit not by choice, I wish I could stop my brain from twirling for awhile.
Too many people’s voices, images are floating around at random timings, and I need to throw out some of it. Probably and to find some courage for the rest of it.
I miss you, you and you and you. Grab all of ya soon.
One of my favourite pics of margie I took (:
Had been busy with sewing lately, the machine certainly ain’t my best friend. Doesn’t help that my head seems fried and weighed down like mad.
Will update everything when I’m free-er.
Ok, so the story goes, there was this time when aL and I were in chinatown like, last year or something and she insisted on trying this skirt which she won’t really wear etc because… the shopkeeper was cute. HAHA. I didn’t realised that he is really, until the past few weeks when I was thromping around chinatown lately. Like, 4 times a week kind of thing.
Today, I was there again and aL no longer thinks that he’s cute. Sigh. (cos she says he looks like wilber, and she doesn’t really like wilber.) sad.
Now, I’m terribly disturbed because out of hand-itchiness I googled the shop name + chinatown, and then I found out the name of the person in question, and out of hand-itchiness (and serious curiousity of my stalking skills) I found his facebook and realised that he’s a friend’s friend.
I’m officially terrified. T_T
Haha. Still currently immersed in Wilber’s new songs yo.
But anyway, margie showed me New Moon’s trailer. And I felt a tiny weeny bit of reluctance when I’m watching. I don’t know why though, but probably I’m afraid of watching and immersing myself in 2 person’s relationship which won’t ever happen in real life.
I remember after watching Twilight I was quite awed by the love Edward and Bella have, but I also pulled myself out of it pretty fast without obsessing over Robert Pattinson (maybe because he seems like a really bland person being himself and not Edward haha). So yes, I delayed the reading of the books too, partly because if I’ve read the book I’d probably won’t want to watch the movie, and partly because I’m fully aware that humans can never be like that, we live for ourselves, we love, so we can be loved too.
And so, I forgot what happened, but margie half yelled at me once, “CAN YOU STOP BEING SO PRACTICAL IN RELATIONSHIPS!? YOU CANNOT BE RATIONAL IN LOVE. Be more romantic can!??!”
… have yet to fall enough, don’t understand.
(I’m damn addicted to Wilber’s new song hehehehehehe)
…. hot hot hot hot hot.
*pauses fangirl moment*
Hi there!
Just finished two days of shooting auntie py’s company’s workshop thingie. It’s quite tiring standing and shooting and listening to a certain *cough* young girl bossing around (to the extend of turning my camera lens to tell me to zoom in. thank you very much I don’t need you to tell me how to turn the lens AND who the hell turns a photographer’s lens while the person’s taking pics?!).
Pictures should be fine, but my wallet isn’t. I conveniently woke up at 845am today, when I was supposed to be there (Central, Clark Quay), at 9am. Thankfully, the event starts at 930am so I could cab down. The bad news was that it was peak hour, thus it cost $17.50. Yay to me, and it is quite a classic case of how wanyu phails in life. Sigh.
Watched Blood: The Last Vampire. Eh I found it QUITE COOL! But the audience was ridiculous. There were dying scenes, or quite gory scenes, and they laughed very happily. It was really weird. But anyway, the only problem was that the plot was quite weak, and the devil creature when it changes forms was too funny to be scary. The acting, cast and cinematography were quite brilliant though. And I just got enlightened that Gianna Jun, is actually Jun Ji-Hyun aka that pretty girl from My Sassy Girl. HAHA! She changed her name!
And I blogged halfway and I forgot what happened that made me want to blog. HAHA.
Hmm. I think after staying clean for say.. 3-4weeks of infiltration of mind it’s coming back. Shall see what happens. Guess no more fear this time. But anyway, gotta buck up buck up!!! bye (:
